Me, Myself, and I: A Quick Overview

Tick-tock-tick-tock. A new day starts with a blast.

As I reminisce everything from the day that I was born until now, a new part of me emerges out from his closet. Basically, something that is unfamiliar introduces himself and runs in front of the stage to make himself recognized. I try to solve the puzzle and let the book of life open to show the world who is the real me.

I don’t know how to start this. My head has no thoughts to share, but I am trying (or should I say urging) myself to get one.

Listening on my favorite radio show, I am sitting on the same old rocking chair, “guarding” my so-called business. The heat of the sun makes my sweat glands work. I could hear the wind pass as the atmosphere becomes darker. As I watch the green grass dance with the wind, I can feel my nerve cells pass information one way to another.

Back to the real world, I am trying to figure out what I am going to tell here. Something everyone could relate. Now, I am overpowered by fear: fear of getting lost… fear of being bullied by the ones who can not understand the real ME and will not bother to understand… fear of being underestimated because of showing my true self…

I am now making a heart-felt decision. I am going to face and conquer those little fears of mine and put a smile on my sad face.

I am a teenage bisexual. At the age of 17, I am now handling the pressure of the not-so-good world. If you’re asking me why I know (or choose) to be one, I would just answer the same 3 little words… I DO’NT KNOW. As what a famous gay icon here in the Philippines has said, being gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender is NOT a sexual preference. If it was, it would take a person a million times to think before he decides on what he want to be.

At first, I am forcing myself not to be one, but a great and soft part of me wants to be recognized. I do believe before that the LGBT community is a taboo, but now, I’m part of them. Expect the unexpected. I’m writing this for the purpose of understanding and persuasion. We are just being thrown in the dark.

Because of that, most of us are now hiding in our little, scary closet, being feared by everyone because of the belief that we are a lie from the demon and a knight of hell. I want to prove that they have only mistaken and we are created by the Heavenly Father equally but with limitations, limitations in such a way it would greatly affect our values.

I realized that the environment is with me. The wind passes faster. The atmosphere cries as it drizzles a little. My feet start to feel uncomfortable.

I can never please everyone. All I want is to be accepted and be considered as a part of the society. With a deep breath, I can say that this is the start of my new beginning…